Well another day has ended and now I am coming down with a sore throat, headache and stuffy nose - oh, great - we have a dinner to go to tomorrow evening. Well, I am run down probably because I have been so emotionally distraut these past few weeks. Yesterday the staff and I at a family meeting determined that Mom is now at the next level of progression of her Alzheizmer's disease and it is best now to move her to the confined Alzheimer's Unit. Oh, how my heart screams in protest that this is happening to her, and to me. I want her to be like she was in her 50's, but that just isn't going to happen. She is now almost 96. It hearts so badly and my heart is just crying at this time. On top of that the depression has been very bad. It is difficult enough to deal with depression on an ongoing basis, but it is worse on the holidays. I believe that is because there is such a drastic contrast between what is happening all around me in the secular as well as the Christian world (with all the lights, parties, singing,) and the darkness darkness that is within my soul all year long that I have to fight through to function in my everyday activities. I have to completely focus on the Christ, and not so much on Christmas itself. It is a painful and lonely time for our family right now, yet, with surrendering to His will and His plan this week in my Mom's life, I was able to enjoy peace and lightness upon waking this morning. That is of the Lord, certainly not of my own creating. Hallelujah what a Savior.