It is been quite some time since I have written on my blog. Haven't had the chance or had the desire to do so. I have somewhat finished my grieving over Princess, but, our house will never be quite the same without her and I see her everywhere I go. When I am out I think that I have to rush home to put her out, then I realize she isn't there and I can stay out a little longer. This morning I was coming up the steps and thought about Princess just at the door when I open it, and realized there will be no Princess at the door. So, she is still very much a constant memory, but the crying is less.

Tomorrow I am having surgery and will have stitches for 3 weeks, after that recovery we are definitely going to many shelters and find ourselves or should I say some dog will find us to adopt. We have been looking, but we can't adopt right now so we couldn't look too hard.

I still continue to battle the recurring thoughts and multiple thoughts with the OCD and trying to go through the days as normal as possible with my responsibilities. The depression is somewhat managed but it is always low level like a cloud over my head everywhere I go and I just have to keep sweeping it inside to stay focused.

So, I will be silent on this blog for a little while again as I recover.

Christ is my life, without Him, I would have NO life. He has kept me for many, many years even when I wasn't even able to think healthy thoughts or have healthy behaviors toward my body.

So, if someone is reading this and feels that they can identify, then my blog has met its purpose.

Nothing can separate us from the Love of God, not even our mental illness.

Blessings to you. Gail