Today is not a good day. I didn't go to church. I could hardly concentrate on Charles Stanley. I was sooooooo depressed that it was difficult to even get out of bed and I just wanted to sleep to get relief from the pain. When times like this happen it scares me that I am going into a severe clincal depression. I suffered from depression since as long as I can remember. It was never diagnosed or treated as a child as that was not even heard of or watched for in my day as a child. I understand that the longer it goes without treatment the more resistant it is to treatment. Thank God that I didn't stay in that spot on a daily basis for the past 14 years or so, which was my last hospitalization. Today, hospitalization is a joke. You aren't there long enough to even know if the meds will work, and you can forget good therapy. I am glad that I got that kind of good care when insurance paid for it. My 6 hospitalizations were all in Christian hospitals, even ECT, and you stayed in for about 6 weeks if needed. If I was going to be sick, the 80's were the time to get help. Okay, back to today. I am up and dressed, and doing so many household chores and it seems just putting off my devotions. I hate feeling like this and avoiding my Savior and putting everything else first. After this post, I am digging into his Word no matter what responsibility calls me. My husband is on the mend, but he really can't do much, so it all falls on me. I should not be complaining as he never complained taking care of me all those years of med trials and hospitalizations, therapy, etc. Vince loves me as Christ loves the Church. Not many people know what a committed husband as well as a Christian he is. I think he would make an excellent elder or deacon, but he would never accept that, as he takes Titus very seriously as the qualifications for the same, and feels he does not qualify. What a serious guy to his faith. Well, off to meet with Jesus! Thanks for reading my post today.