This past week the Lord has been impressing upon my heart that I don't spend enough time with him. "Draw nigh to me and I will draw nigh to you" and also, "Faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God." I have been spending too much time watching tv and following the current events of our country, and spending alot of time on my computer. This time must be dedicated to the Lord if I am ever going to get back to the excitement and reality of when "I first believed". So many hospitalizations, anorexia and depression has eaten up all my years, "All the years that the locust have eaten". I have to reclaim that time back and rededicate it back to the Lord. I can't get by today on yesterday's victories and closeness with the Lord. I need to saturate my mind and heart with his promises and statutes. I think of the old hymn, "Trust and obey for there is no other way to be happy in Jesus, but to trust and Obey. Today in therapy, my therapist confirmed the same to me. There is so much stimulus and issues taking up my time and crowding out the Lord and fellowship with him, and it was his encouragement for me to cut back less on those things, and dedicate that time to be with the Lord. "Lord Jesus help me to spend the time I use to spend with you when I was first saved." Have you been there, or are you there? Are your emotional issues demanding all your time and attention, and the depression paralyzing you? I completely understand, but we, more than most Christians, have to even spend more time and hang onto the hem of His garment maybe even more than others. Tall order isn't it? I must yield to the Holy Spirit to do this because I am just powerless over my disease.