Well, it has been some time since I have written on my blog since my postop visit. It is now 21 days since surgery and still have stitches and quite swollen. I get these stitches out on Wed, hopefully. I haven't been a compliant patient and have been doing some things which I shouldn't have done, but I just can't sit around. I already see the results of not exercising for 3 weeks. I hope she tells me that I can begin to work out again.

Also, I started cutting back on my meds because my mail order has been so slow that I had to stretch them. I thought I was doing pretty good at the lower doses, however, about a week ago it all came crashing down and the depression is horrible as well as the OCD. It is so difficult to even get out of bed in the morning and even face the day. I have to keep pushing all day just to get some things done. I had two books I wanted to read while recoverying and I only got 3/4 through one, and the other I never picked up. It is so difficult to focus and even retain what you read with clinical depression.

However, I continue to sign in church in worship. We have stopped for the summer and I miss it very much.

Well, speaking of church, I have to run a we are soon leaving for church and worship our wonder God in our Savior's love and mercy.

Thank you Jesus for saving me and loving me even when I am so unlovely.

Maranatha!!!!